Another three months

I am not going to lie, it is not easy to keep up with myself. I had a great summer mostly home with my girls and now I am back to work full time. Kyle is now working in North Carolina, still only coming home on weekends. My darling husband, he is such a hard worker. God bless him for all he does. I just hope one day we can live together.

My girls are beautiful! Emma, a gorgeous and exquisitely smart toddler, and Hanna, the ever-so-sweet infant. Oh, how I treasure every moment I spend in their presence. I just wish it was more and more. I melt like chocolate in the sun when they surround me. Love has a whole new meaning when you become a parent. I would instantly die for these two if I could save them for harm at any moment.

My husband and I have a few hurdles. I pray that our weekends get smoother. I pray he will engage more with the girls. I pray that I can be better and better at being his wife. I want to obey him, not bother him. I want him to feel loved when he is at home. I hope he knows how much i love him and how proud I am to be his wife. I need to do a better job showing him that.

I have not written.

However, I did give birth to another amazing little baby girl on mother's day this year! So this is how it happened, from craving hot dogs to holding my darling Hanna. She is a true beauty and as young as she is full of personality. She is clever. I can see it in her eyes. She is a thinker. She takes in things and ponders. She is brilliant and so sweet. She is everything beautiful and simply pure. It is pleasure to hold her, love her and be her mother. Here she is!

Children continue dying from cancer...

My heart sinks learning of little ones suffering so much. No child should endure pain. They are so innocent and pure and beautiful. Maybe that is why God is taking them back.

It's Good Friday!

I am copying a segment from Pastor Asher's blog that I found very powerful:

As I read today’s Gospel (John 18:1-19:42), I was trying to imagine myself in the story and to figure out who am I relating to the most this time around. Last year I found myself relating to the soldier who pierced Jesus’ side with a spear. Strangely enough, this year it was Pontius Pilate who captured my imagination. Pilate did not harbor malice, anger, hatred, or any other ill feelings towards Jesus. He was a Roman bureaucrat and an able administrator trying to maintain fragile peace in a peripheral province of the Roman Empire. He had the power and resources to change things. He also had a conscience that warned him from harming Jesus (not to mention a wife who told him to do the right thing). Somehow, Pilate ended up standing idly by, washing his hands of any involvement and blaming others for the injustice.

Thousands of people in the word starved today; thousands more died because of object poverty. Millions of children around the world and in our own country did not go to school because education is not available to them or because they cannot afford it; many families are worried about losing their homes, our economy is not doing too well, there are wars and armed conflicts all over the globe. None of these are my fault. I am neither advocating nor actively supporting these problems… Unfortunately, my silence and inaction are saying something… Jesus is still crucified every day …

“whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” Matthew 25:40 NIV

All of us have at least some of the ability and the knowledge. Most of us lack the desire or the drive…

Thank you for the lesson, pastor! It's a good one!

Okay! We are getting there!

Had my OB appointment today and they told me I am 2cm dilated and 80% effaced. Same thing happened with Emma, and she came exactly 2 weeks after these news. So I am thinking 2 more weeks of whale-status... Of course, we never know. She could drag it out to the end easily. We are scheduled for C-section om May 10th at 10am, which is 3 weeks from now, so either way, the time is near! I get to hold, and meet Hanna-banana soon!

Graceface is adorable. She is getting a cold again, which I am not happy about. I hope we can get over it without fever, ear infection or other fine ailments that can develop. I wonder how she will be with Hanna.

I also wonder if I can make some progress with Fam-fam, our pit-bull/golden retriever. She's been quite aggressive lately, and it concerns me, since we'll be having 2 little girls running around the house. I love my pooch and would be devastated if I had to part with her, so I am determined to start some training. It's weird because she was fine all this time and I don't know why she gets so ticked off lately.

Anyways, I'll be in touch soon...hopefully with Banana pics! :)

Haven't checked in in a while...

So we are down to the final stretch before Hanna joins the family. I am well, and pretty much pain-free so far, and thankfully, the terrors of the third trimester managed to avoid me so far. Hoping for the next 3-4 weeks to go just as smooth. I am scheduled for a repeat C-section on May 10th, but in my heart I am sort of expecting Hanna to arrive on the 4th-ish. We'll see.

In the meantime my BIG girl turned 2 years old! She is just adorable, and had a wonderful birthday! I am the luckiest mommy to have my Emma. I hope Hanna will be a great baby too.

Healthy and happy and loved and blessed with a long fruitful life.
Healthy and happy and loved and blessed with a long fruitful life.
Healthy and happy and loved and blessed with a long fruitful life.

That is all I want for my girls. I love them so much! It is unbelievable how much a parent can love their child. There are no words to describe it. I feel pretty prepared for welcoming Hanna. Her room is done. Her car seat is installed. She has more clothes than a celebrity. The only thing I have no clue how I will do is juggle all my tasks with a newborn and a toddler. I pray that it will be a breeze.

I also pray that I can be a good, responsible mother. I want to teach them love and truth. Amen

It is finished

I finished listening to the entire Bible today! What a journey it has been! I started listening in June, I believe. And here is another gem I found. A reference to Christ's coming from the book of Zechariah:

Zechariah 12

Mourning for the One They Pierced
10 “And I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit[a] of grace and supplication. They will look on[b] me, the one they have pierced, and they will mourn for him as one mourns for an only child, and grieve bitterly for him as one grieves for a firstborn son. 11 On that day the weeping in Jerusalem will be as great as the weeping of Hadad Rimmon in the plain of Megiddo. 12 The land will mourn, each clan by itself, with their wives by themselves: the clan of the house of David and their wives, the clan of the house of Nathan and their wives, 13 the clan of the house of Levi and their wives, the clan of Shimei and their wives, 14 and all the rest of the clans and their wives.

Zechariah 13

Cleansing From Sin
1 “On that day a fountain will be opened to the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem, to cleanse them from sin and impurity.

2 “On that day, I will banish the names of the idols from the land, and they will be remembered no more,” declares the LORD Almighty. “I will remove both the prophets and the spirit of impurity from the land.